Monthly Archives: September 2012

The Man I Love



There are prophets. I have lead by a not challenge. And sorry trying to write but cannot. P is a lot…challenging. He is 8.

Today Cindy and family bring our kids. This was a good work or Steve and M. were wonderful.

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The Ryder Cup and Brain Cancer

Clark and I spent the day glued to the TV watching the Ryder Cup taking place at Medina Country Club in Chicago. The Europeans, captained by Jose Maria Olazabal of Spain, came from behind today to achieve an unbelieveable victory. The Europeans wore a silouhette of Seve Ballesteros on their sleeves.  Seve, a former Ryder Cup European captain, also from Spain, and partner of Olazabal in many Ryder Cups, died last year of brain cancer, so this is the first Ryder Cup without him. The “spirit of Seve” has been mentioned many times today as an inspiration to the European players.

Ballesteros fainted in a Madrid airport while waiting to board a flight to Germany on Oct. 6, 2008, and was subsequently diagnosed with the brain tumor. He underwent four separate operations, including a 6½-hour procedure to remove the tumor and reduce swelling around the brain. After leaving the hospital, his treatment continued with chemotherapy.

Ballesteros looked thin and pale while making several public appearances in 2009 after being given what he referred to as the “mulligan of my life.”  Ballesteros lived about 2 1/2 years after diagnosis.

[+] EnlargeSeve Ballesteros

Seve Ballesteros was a three-time winner of the British Open, no moment greater than his 1984 victory at St. Andrews.

Give It Up

The kids are fighting as I write. I could see that is bad, but…it’s still love.


I should trite about the list of people who do such. But was tired.



That said,  there are somethings about. A. was full of warning. But there was a bit of  things that made me.

1) I am talking. Still talk. I am string with word. I must less, but I can speak that writing.

2) Slow the right side is getting 6-8 weeks is sign.

3) I can walk. Not much, but I can.  On a good, I can

4) No of has that Dr. A live, his peatent, have lifed. We are the other patient, are not mind. Do not, there other have a horrible life. But Glioblastoma multiform.


With one year…one.
Please, I am very tired. But I am alive.

Off to Davis

For the 3rd week in a row, Erin has gone to Davis.  Cindy picked her up about 6:15 this evening, and will bring Erin back Monday morning about 9 am. Erin took off with 2 wheelchairs and 2 bags of Trader Joe’s groceries, which she had purchased this morning with Shannon.

This morning Shannon came and took Erin to run errands and have lunch.  Erin came home exhuasted, and too tired to talk to Barbara, the volunteer, who was on the phone. Barbara was home from her 4 week bicycle tour of France. Barbara had heard that Erin had gone off of hospice. But, Barbara considers herself a friend and neighbor, so she is planning to stop buy and take Erin around the block next week.

Barbara uttered the same words as Dr. Adams: enjoy each day and don’t plan too far ahead.


“Don’t Let a Day go by that You Don’t Make the Most of”

Erin saw Dr. Adams, her oncologist, this afternoon for the first time since July 31st. He had been out for 4 weeks with an injured knee and is still in a boot type cast and has to keep his leg elevated. So, we met in his office rather than an exam room.

He thought Erin looked the same, but said that he cannot predict what will happen.  Uncertainty is difficult to deal with and we just have to deal with it day by day. He warned not to make long term plans.

She can get a flu shot, but people with a cold or flu should not visit her. She had lost 5 pounds in the 8 weeks since she had seen him.

Steve arrived for the last 5 minutes of the appt. (Dr. Adams always runs about 20 minutes early.) Steve asked about an MRI. Dr. Adams didn’t recommend having one. At this stage, it doesn’t tell you anything. He said he visits Erin for social purposes. She is post-modern medicine. Chemotherapy failed, and now she is “post-scientific”, or as they say in med school, “post-modern”.  It is back to old-fashioned pre-chemo day medicine.

He warned: “Dont’ let a day go by that you don’t make the most of.”


Erin back in Sacramento

Cindy brought Erin back to Sacramento this morning. Then Erin got caught up on sleep.  We actually left her alone this afternoon for a couple of hours while we went to a Memorial service for a colleague. She managed fine.