Mom, Patricia, and Clark stopped by today. But this was the real highlight: there was a bald woman at the counter. Since she was wearing a bandana and in her 60s, I assumed she was in chemo. She was getting ice cream. I took off my hat and said, “It will come back.” and explained that in a few weeks I was finally taking a break from a year of chemo . She seemed dumbfounded and confused. Looked shocked at the happy kids. She never asked what I had. She just saw the boys with big eyes.
Monthly Archives: August 2010
OK, not covered. But I seem to have a breakout. I have one on my knuckle, several on my chin, bum-bum, etc. Just has I thought I had Tarceva’s zit factory under control.
Fleet Feet is hosting a women’s beginning running group. The time slot I am in is MW 8:45. There were 20 women taking their first running steps, or just rejuvenating their past. I pushed Tommy and he was perfectly happy. We were on the bike trail and as cyclists passed the group, someone yelled “bike.” The Tommy would echo, Baaaa. Afterward, two women joined me at Peet’s coffee and Tommy shared a pecan bun with me.
Davis has been spectacular for us. Steve has a long commute, but seems so happy here. My life as a stay-at-home mom, or as a parent is broadened every day. So I made new friends today, then for Paco’s soccer practice, I saw a few baseball parents. The teams for soccer had been organized well. 5 kids from Paco’s baseball team were on the same soccer team. The parents were all glad to see each other.
Earlier today, two of the dads and I were discussing the affection for vodka, and the vintner (who is saving a Cab Franc for when I can have red wine again) is planning on fresh margaritas when his tangerines will be ready to juice. I love that we all talk about evenings and food and celebration.
So yes, the zits are growing (Steve is saying, that looks like a bad zit (on my chin) and the Avastin makes my soreness extreme. Today I bonded with moms and dads and Steve made it home in time for dinner. Hmmm, maybe if I put baby motrin on the zit it would not be so huge tomorrow.
I mean, I am a medical experiment, no?
This weekend, whilst Steve has been in constant pain, I have been in mild discomfort. But somehow, life got…slightly organized.
Steve and I are both achy, but his back is full-blown labor pain, and my body is more post labor, sore in a positive way. Today I went for 2 walks with Lemon. That kid is the easiest kid in a stroller I have ever seen. He just loves witnessing life.
So I ate too much oatmeal this weekend and have been hurrying to the bathroom (too much fiber). I have emptied or consolidated boxes and have 20 on the front porch. I got my beloved NordicTrak together and ordered a lost part. Poor Paco, his room is still a mess. But Tommy follows him around everywhere. He just wants to be close to his brother. This week, perhaps I can attack his room.
The gods of laundry arrived and the clean laundry was mounting higher and higher on the sofa. Steve had nowhere to sit. I meanly assigned Steve to help me fold, and fold, and fold, and fold. The kids play area looks like a big closet. Piles of laundry exist based on who may wear them (Paco steals my socks, I steal Steve’s Argentina t-shirts). The laundry is folded.
The ups and down of health and work are a challenge. Steve is loving his new job, but his back is at its worst. For me, the need to step up and carry more boxes is helping me. Without the responsibility of boxes and children, I would not be moving. Moving is what Avastin needs. It is achy to get out of bed, or get up from a sofa, but once I move, I feel better. Without those boys, I would be watching TV as much as I could.
I walked 1.5 miles twice today. Not bad for me. The first time was to pick up my favorite soap. The second, was to give Steve an hour of peace. Paco walked with me and we went to Rite Aid for ice cream. Steve got worried. I think he just wished we had driven so we could bring him back some chocolate malted crunch.
Walking with those boys was the highlight of my day. Paco and I have not had a good chat like this in ages. And Lemon was quiet for once. But then, he was preoccupied with the ice cream cone. I loved telling Paco about Thrifty when I was a kid. How much was a triple? $0.35 cents. I used to get a mint chip and rainbow sherbet (yuck, but $0.25)). We could always get our dad to take us there. And even Babs had her weaknesses. My father’s birthday was yesterday, I listened to classical music most of the day. He would have been 74. Things are as they are meant to be, and I got to walk to ice cream with my son. The last six to seven years of his life, my dad could not walk. So pushing a stroller and holding Paco’s hand today just seemed…a true gift, a true miracle, and an activity to force me to appreciate where I am and what I have.
Apologies for not posting. I have waited too late to be productive.
I got sucked into a movie and waited to do much. Steve came home a bit late, and the boys were just about to head to bed. So I started to veg before anything else. At 9:50 (the end of the movie) I got up to take a bath.
Inside my head: Flex, point, flex, point, flex, point, flex, flex flex! Should I shave my legs or no? Ugh, it has been so long. (Avastin is not helpful for nicks or cuts). But given the gorilla factor, yes. Get out of water, put soap on mental list, I am so going to forget mental list. Get dressed, walk into bedroom to take Tarceva, need water, where is my water from last night? Oh, that is right, I dumped it and cleaned the bottle. (Walking into kitchen) ugh, dishes, there is no water in the cooler. Water? Where is my Tarceva I have to take? (Back into my room) Why was I here? Oh, Tarceva. Where is my water bottle? (Back to the kitchen) whew found bottle, Tarceva. Bleech. Need to set timer for when I can eat. How many days until I can eat cereal with really cold milk? That sounds so good.
And I can breathe. Yesterday was Paco’s 1st day of 1st grade. It was also a little parents reunion. My Roman friend came over after and our kids played while we had coffee and chatted. The beginnings of a normal year.
Last night I fell asleep about 9 and slept until the morning (ok there were 2 stops in the night, one me, one Lemon). I am not so controlled that I can make myself got to bed at 10. Oh, I wish…
I spent so much of the previous school year in a blur. The first days, the first months, Steve managed. I did not really step in until March/April. I slowly came to the surface. After a summer of juggling and comparing notes with other parents I feel at ease. Life is busy, but that is our modern culture. So this time last year I did not really even know Paco’s hours, but now I do. I am back to packing the lunches and snacks, taking him to school, checking his backpack, learning about his day.
Today, I was tired, but caught up on some paper work. OK, I did not actually catch up, but I worked a bit on loose ends. Lemon slept well. He was my buddy today, we went to the bike shop (needed locks) then Co-op (needed Wallaby yogurt). Lemon then took a good nap and there was peace and quiet for a time.
Kate arrived to give the boys dinner so I could meet Steve. We had not had a meal alone in months and months.
The date was short, but it was a meal without anyone pulling on my arm, nor complaining, nor asking about dessert. Ahhh a peaceful Viognier on a beautiful evening. A good life affirmation.
Drowsiness wins. Ahhh peaceful sleep awaits.