I find I am denial. In about 10 days I will go back to UCSF and learn something new. I have to tell me yes it will work. I am not ready and and I think sometimes in denial as a point.

I’ll try to write later. But Friday was the moment where evey medical person saod this is not working, so may be we can a new solution.

I spent most of my day in denial. At the zoo. Some days, Sitting in the sun gave me beautty. For now, that is what I am going to do with my be a world in denial.