Augh. I don’t remember much of yesterday. I was exhausted (due to the heat, I think) in the afternoon. I grabbed an amazing 9 min nap that enabled me to function. Except my tongue was still on fire most of the day. I ate a bit of this, or that and the searing engaged.
The kids wore themselves out at soccer fields and despite the heat, the day went relatively well. Lemon is a great kid in a stroller. No sleeping, but he enjoys the views of traveling. I have to start working with him more on holding hands and walking.
Today, I had to go to Vallejo to get the Mazda serviced. Our choices for warranty work are Elk Grove, Roseville or Vallejo. Ugh. Vallejo started out ok, but after too much over promising Lemon and I were so wiped out. He was a good sport and spent 5 hours in the car seat, stroller or a high chair (Steve met us for lunch). The irony, I was running 20 minutes late this morning and called the dealership. They ran over 2 hours (probably 3, I gave up) later than the estimate. My attitude has changed. Before I would use my rage to get what I wanted. I would argue for effect, for righteousness. Now, I find it exhausts me. I argue with Steve (even that has receded) and Paco, but in general, I just get exasperated and close the case. Sometimes I am brusque, but not too long ago, I would make valid points; now I seem to just walk away in a hostility cloud.
I was so tired, as was Lemon, that I gave up and ordered a rental car. I was just close to tears of frustration. Do not overpromise. Under promise. Did Saturn teach us nothing? Under promise, over deliver!
Lemon was a stellar kid. He put up with so much. For a few moments, at the beginning, when we were walking towards the restaurants and stores, I dreamed of walking with him on a trip. Buenos Aires? Rome? That was the first two hours. After pushing 25 lbs around for 4 hours, I dreamed of a cruise, where I could sleep, eat, exercise. Sleep, eat, exercise. Yea, yea, views. Sleep, eat exercise.
I ended up renting that car without losing it and they are going to comp it. But I have to learn to complain without rage. I have to learn to be polite and efficient. I find that I am two extremes. I am frustrated or overjoyed. It depends on the day, the exercise, the fatigue. That does not seem rare at all.